I don't get it....?

#Warning- This blog will contain some VENTING material#

Hey lovers...i know i am such an infrequent blogger please forgive me...life throws so many curveballs at you sometimes, its hard to catch them all. I've truly missed blogging from the heart...like its such therapy for me and has definitely helped me through so much these past 4 months or so..and i love you all for being there with me every step for the way. Thank you ..and on that note shout outs to neefemi for the award...kisses, hugs and so much love your way boo!

So..i spoke to Boy No.1 from back in the day...do you guys remember him...my "first" ..so yea i had emailed him over the holidays..a somewhat spiteful email...i shouldn't have sent but i got to thinking about him and how he has a girlfriend now and it just got me mad!..so i sent him an email..and he replied me saying he wished i didn't feel the way i did and that hes in naija now so he'll call me when he gets back to the states.

So he messages me on gchat asking if he can call me...so we chitchat for a bit and he calls saying he knows he owes me an apology for disappearing on me and being a total ass..and that hes truly sorry and all that...i mean i forgive him but i know it will take a while e to forget it all, but we back to being somewhat friends again..i don't know about it all. In my heart i still care for him but i can't see him in the same light as I did before...he says he's heart broken...I don't think he knows the meaning of the word.

Also i was reading neefemi's recent blog about being tired of america and all that and i certainly know how she is feeling..i mean the job market is so bad and right now i'm barely working so its kind of depressing ...applying to jobs all over again...sometimes i wonder if i would be better off in Nigeria...even though i would be working in a bank which is definitely not my field but at least i would be making good money. Then again, i have friend in naija who are trying to come to the states or the UK because things are so bad over there and i feel lucky again. Then i think about the thousands of people who died in Haiti and i know that I am definitely lucky because things could be so much worse off for me and i thank God everyday for his mercies. God dey...All will be well.

Another thing..so I have noticed something among my group of friends...or at least young nigerian cliques...there is a lot of tribalism between yoruba and igbo...and i don't understand why. One of my friends tweeted the other day because some igbo guy pissed her off that "she doesn't like igbo people because they are full of shit"...really?.. Another igbo guy said something about "yoruba people being dirty and uneducated". In my mind, I'm thinking is all this necessary and where is all the hate coming from...you could be talking and chatting with a igbo babe or guy but once some kind of argument comes up about tribes...everyone just picks sides and all friendship and alliances are forgotten. Its really sad because that is part of our problem in Nigeria...we see ourselves as Nigerians when its convenient but as Yorubas, IGBOs, Hausas...whenever it deems fit. Its not like CNN is reporting that a Hausa boy tried to bomb a plane on Christmas Day...they are saying he was NIGERIAN!.. the sooner we get into our heads that are all in this together and that we are from the same country...we will never progress...not including the fact that our President is MIA..so please i'm tired of the "igbos like money" jokes and the "yorubas are razz" stories..enough already.

I'm not saying we can't represent our individual cultures..just treat others with respect.

Alright! LOL..so im off my soapbox and omg...David Olorun i swear im just checking my blog email after so long so reply my email abeg! no vex lol...

So Vals Day is coming up...."sigh" lol

Kisses and hugs guysssss....and Keep Breathing God loves us all.

p.s Roc Naija...pls come back naaaaaa